Psalms 42:5
Why are you in despair, O my soul?
And why have you become disturbed within me?
Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him
For the help of His presence.
Hebrews 5:3-5
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
And HOPE does not disappoint. And yet I feel so disappointed. Afraid to hope for fear it will come crashing down around me. I have hoped for so many things, and like bubbles on a hot summer day in Texas, those hopes have vanished. Evaporated before falling to the ground, with nothing left as evidence that they even existed. I know that sounds extreme, and a bit dramatic.
Is Hope something we can just will to exist, or not to exist? I think of hope as a balloon, and God is picking through my bundle with needle. Pop, pop, pop till nothing is left. Of course this seems cruel, but really now that I look at it, it's all because I'm blowing up hopeless balloons. All my hope should be in Jesus, and yet it seems that it isn't.
So, I want to be angry, am I some child that I need this sort of discipline? Why can't He just send someone to tell me? Why force this on me in this way? Surely there are other ways to make this point. It hurts and I'm tired, I just want some relief from crying my eyes out over popped balloons. "...suffering produces perseverence; perseverance, character; and character, hope..."
Monday, April 13, 2009
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Let My Silence Be Praise
Sweet melody to Your ears alone.
In silence my heart cries
It cries out to you
That you would be glorified alone.
As the trees praise
As the mountains bow
Like all creation
I will glorify You
Sweet fragrance to You alone.
My song is silenced
To hear Your voice
That You would be glorified alone.
As the trees praise
As the mountains bow
Like all creation
I will glorify You.
Melinda Wells
04/05/09
Eccl 3:6-8
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
1 Kings 19:11-13
11 The LORD said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for the LORD is about to pass by."
Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. 13 When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave.
Then a voice said to him, "What are you doing here, Elijah?"
I love to sing, I love to write, I love to talk, I love to voice my opinion, idea, thoughts, and everything. Lately I have felt a need to just be quiet. To just listen to the Lord. Sometimes I get wrapped up in my own words, and I don't stop to examine them. Do they agree with God's words? Are my words louder than His? I want to be like the trees, created to praise just like I am, but without words they bring Him glory. They simply do what they were created for. Mountains bow before God's majesty. No words uttered there, just humble surrender. Like Ecclesiastes says, there is a time to be silent, and that time is now.
In silence my heart cries
It cries out to you
That you would be glorified alone.
As the trees praise
As the mountains bow
Like all creation
I will glorify You
Sweet fragrance to You alone.
My song is silenced
To hear Your voice
That You would be glorified alone.
As the trees praise
As the mountains bow
Like all creation
I will glorify You.
Melinda Wells
04/05/09
Eccl 3:6-8
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
1 Kings 19:11-13
11 The LORD said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for the LORD is about to pass by."
Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. 13 When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave.
Then a voice said to him, "What are you doing here, Elijah?"
I love to sing, I love to write, I love to talk, I love to voice my opinion, idea, thoughts, and everything. Lately I have felt a need to just be quiet. To just listen to the Lord. Sometimes I get wrapped up in my own words, and I don't stop to examine them. Do they agree with God's words? Are my words louder than His? I want to be like the trees, created to praise just like I am, but without words they bring Him glory. They simply do what they were created for. Mountains bow before God's majesty. No words uttered there, just humble surrender. Like Ecclesiastes says, there is a time to be silent, and that time is now.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Hmmm
Untitled
Melinda Wells 03/31/09
Childsplay
A Circus
The funhouse effect
I'm looking at mirrors
That are all around me.
The skinny one
The fat one
The tall one
The short one
Reflections
of me
Well sort of
But are they real?
Skewed images of the truth.
One by one they taunt me
Keeping me trapped inside
Their voices drowning out
Your still small voice that guides.
Your light pours in
And reveals the truth
Looking in a mirror
Till my reflection is You.
Melinda Wells 03/31/09
Childsplay
A Circus
The funhouse effect
I'm looking at mirrors
That are all around me.
The skinny one
The fat one
The tall one
The short one
Reflections
of me
Well sort of
But are they real?
Skewed images of the truth.
One by one they taunt me
Keeping me trapped inside
Their voices drowning out
Your still small voice that guides.
Your light pours in
And reveals the truth
Looking in a mirror
Till my reflection is You.
Friday, March 27, 2009
I Finally Get It!
Below is an email I recently sent to my hubby about some confusion I had been having regarding Hebrews 2. Hope you enjoy!
Okay, so remember back when we were having bible study before game night? And we read Heb 2:
5It is not to angels that he has subjected the world to come, about which we are speaking. 6But there is a place where someone has testified:
"What is man that you are mindful of him,
the son of man that you care for him?
7You made him a little lower than the angels;
you crowned him with glory and honor
8 and put everything under his feet."
In putting everything under him, God left nothing that is not subject to him. Yet at present we do not see everything subject to him. 9But we see Jesus, who was made a little lower than the angels, now crowned with glory and honor because he suffered death, so that by the grace of God he might taste death for everyone.
And we were all confused about what it was saying? So I was reading Psalms 8 today. And I think it clicked. Vs 1 says "...You have set Your glory above the heavens...", which is talking about how far above our concept is God's glory. Then vs 3-5
3 When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers,
The moon and the stars, which You have ordained,
4 What is man that You are mindful of him,
And the son of man that You visit him?
5 For You have made him a little lower than the angels,
And You have crowned him with glory and honor.
When I consider the awesomeness, the greatness, the majesty of my God, why would he put so much stock in this lowly being, man? In Hebrews we see that same question, but it goes even further. Why would God "demote" His son to that same lowly position? Imagine a king taking his only son, his heir, and making him live like a peasant. His son is the one that going to keep foreigners out of the kingdom, keep other countries from coming in and taking over, the son is the continuation of what has been and (w/ fingers crossed) always will be. So, God took the heir to His throne and made Him like us, man so that we could be heirs. Hebrews is making that connection, Jesus became like us so that we could be like HIm.
So, back to Hebrews 2:
10In bringing many sons to glory, it was fitting that God, for whom and through whom everything exists, should make the author of their salvation perfect through suffering.
11Both the one who makes men holy and those who are made holy are of the same family. So Jesus is not ashamed to call them brothers.
12He says,
"I will declare your name to my brothers;
in the presence of the congregation I will sing your praises."
13And again,
"I will put my trust in him."
And again he says,
"Here am I, and the children God has given me."
Okay, so remember back when we were having bible study before game night? And we read Heb 2:
5It is not to angels that he has subjected the world to come, about which we are speaking. 6But there is a place where someone has testified:
"What is man that you are mindful of him,
the son of man that you care for him?
7You made him a little lower than the angels;
you crowned him with glory and honor
8 and put everything under his feet."
In putting everything under him, God left nothing that is not subject to him. Yet at present we do not see everything subject to him. 9But we see Jesus, who was made a little lower than the angels, now crowned with glory and honor because he suffered death, so that by the grace of God he might taste death for everyone.
And we were all confused about what it was saying? So I was reading Psalms 8 today. And I think it clicked. Vs 1 says "...You have set Your glory above the heavens...", which is talking about how far above our concept is God's glory. Then vs 3-5
3 When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers,
The moon and the stars, which You have ordained,
4 What is man that You are mindful of him,
And the son of man that You visit him?
5 For You have made him a little lower than the angels,
And You have crowned him with glory and honor.
When I consider the awesomeness, the greatness, the majesty of my God, why would he put so much stock in this lowly being, man? In Hebrews we see that same question, but it goes even further. Why would God "demote" His son to that same lowly position? Imagine a king taking his only son, his heir, and making him live like a peasant. His son is the one that going to keep foreigners out of the kingdom, keep other countries from coming in and taking over, the son is the continuation of what has been and (w/ fingers crossed) always will be. So, God took the heir to His throne and made Him like us, man so that we could be heirs. Hebrews is making that connection, Jesus became like us so that we could be like HIm.
So, back to Hebrews 2:
10In bringing many sons to glory, it was fitting that God, for whom and through whom everything exists, should make the author of their salvation perfect through suffering.
11Both the one who makes men holy and those who are made holy are of the same family. So Jesus is not ashamed to call them brothers.
12He says,
"I will declare your name to my brothers;
in the presence of the congregation I will sing your praises."
13And again,
"I will put my trust in him."
And again he says,
"Here am I, and the children God has given me."
Sunday, March 22, 2009
On The Outside Looking In
Little girl
Hair all in bows,
Looking through
A toy store window.
Sees happy children
Playing inside.
Sees happy children
Laughing through smiles.
Always looking in
Always wanting to take part.
The door seems to be locked
Breaking her fragile heart.
Does something better
Await down the road?
Is there something more precious
She's waiting to behold?
Melinda Wells
03/22/09
Hair all in bows,
Looking through
A toy store window.
Sees happy children
Playing inside.
Sees happy children
Laughing through smiles.
Always looking in
Always wanting to take part.
The door seems to be locked
Breaking her fragile heart.
Does something better
Await down the road?
Is there something more precious
She's waiting to behold?
Melinda Wells
03/22/09
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Just feel like writing
Untitled
by: Melinda Wells
I give my life
I give my all for You
Nothing I desire
Nothing I can do
Will ever satisfy me like You.
And I worship You
I worship You
I worship You, my Lord.
You are my God
You are my King
You're my Lord,
Myy everything.
And I worship You
I worship You
I worship You, my Lord
by: Melinda Wells
I give my life
I give my all for You
Nothing I desire
Nothing I can do
Will ever satisfy me like You.
And I worship You
I worship You
I worship You, my Lord.
You are my God
You are my King
You're my Lord,
Myy everything.
And I worship You
I worship You
I worship You, my Lord
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Radiation
Romans 8:18-25
Psalms 46
Family Force 5
Radiator lyrics
[Verse 1:]
Goodbye humans, goodbye earth
I've left this place and all it's worth
I am transcending space and time
I'm traveling at the speed of light
Affection, reflection
This is the new direction
Conspiracy is idiocracy
I radiate light's transparency
[Pre Chorus 1:]
Generation
Radiation
We are the chosen nation
[Chorus:]
Hey you, you're blowing my mind again
Out of my skull, I feel the levitation
I feel my skin crawling off of my soul
I feel your radiation
[Tag:]
I'll be a radiator just like you
Radiate it on me, burn it on through
I feel the radiation
Radiate it on me
[Verse 2:]
Hello future, hello birth
This is your newborn universe
There is no longer wrong or right
We have become a source of light
[Pre Chorus 2:]
Conceptual
Celestial
We are extraterrestrial
Creator
Vindicator
We are the
Allright, so you probably are thinking what all the above have in common. I am going to try my hardest to help you understand what I saw in all of it.
With all the talk of our economic woes and how things are only going to get worse, I had been feeling somewhat uneasy. But a couple of days ago, I started reading some verses in Psalms, and I really felt God's peace. In Psalms 46, it says in verses 1-3, "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. Selah." I sort of equated what is going in the economy with the earth giving way and falling into the sea, but my hope and peace comes from knowing that God is my refuge. That it doesn't matter what happens in this world, my hope is in God. Which brings me to Romans 8:18-25 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.
We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has?But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently."
Which leads to today. I don't know where it came from, cause last night I was more overwhelmed with the doomsday messages I heard about the end of days. But this morning, God's peace settled over me as I listened to the radio. What was playing? Radiator by Family Force 5. Haha, I know how could that possibly bring me peace? God reminded me once again, my hope is in Him. I am eagerly looking forward to the "redemption of my body." When I leave this decaying body behind, when I leave this falling world, when I am standing in the presence of God!
Okay, I'm not sure if I tied it all together as well I had planned, but the bottom line is this. Yes, it may be that we are in the last and final days. Our stock market may plummet, and the world we know seemingly fall into the sea, the only way to have peace through it all is to have God as your refuge. In Psalms, David continuously calls God his stronghold, rock, refuge. I have no doubt that if things only get worse, God will be my refuge. He will cover me, and He will provide all that I need, He always has and I know He always will. God, thank you for showering me with Your peace today, for reminding me where my hope lies. Be my refuge, my strong tower, the only stronghold in my life. I look forward to being a radiator, radiating Your radiation!
Psalms 46
Family Force 5
Radiator lyrics
[Verse 1:]
Goodbye humans, goodbye earth
I've left this place and all it's worth
I am transcending space and time
I'm traveling at the speed of light
Affection, reflection
This is the new direction
Conspiracy is idiocracy
I radiate light's transparency
[Pre Chorus 1:]
Generation
Radiation
We are the chosen nation
[Chorus:]
Hey you, you're blowing my mind again
Out of my skull, I feel the levitation
I feel my skin crawling off of my soul
I feel your radiation
[Tag:]
I'll be a radiator just like you
Radiate it on me, burn it on through
I feel the radiation
Radiate it on me
[Verse 2:]
Hello future, hello birth
This is your newborn universe
There is no longer wrong or right
We have become a source of light
[Pre Chorus 2:]
Conceptual
Celestial
We are extraterrestrial
Creator
Vindicator
We are the
Allright, so you probably are thinking what all the above have in common. I am going to try my hardest to help you understand what I saw in all of it.
With all the talk of our economic woes and how things are only going to get worse, I had been feeling somewhat uneasy. But a couple of days ago, I started reading some verses in Psalms, and I really felt God's peace. In Psalms 46, it says in verses 1-3, "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. Selah." I sort of equated what is going in the economy with the earth giving way and falling into the sea, but my hope and peace comes from knowing that God is my refuge. That it doesn't matter what happens in this world, my hope is in God. Which brings me to Romans 8:18-25 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.
We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has?But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently."
Which leads to today. I don't know where it came from, cause last night I was more overwhelmed with the doomsday messages I heard about the end of days. But this morning, God's peace settled over me as I listened to the radio. What was playing? Radiator by Family Force 5. Haha, I know how could that possibly bring me peace? God reminded me once again, my hope is in Him. I am eagerly looking forward to the "redemption of my body." When I leave this decaying body behind, when I leave this falling world, when I am standing in the presence of God!
Okay, I'm not sure if I tied it all together as well I had planned, but the bottom line is this. Yes, it may be that we are in the last and final days. Our stock market may plummet, and the world we know seemingly fall into the sea, the only way to have peace through it all is to have God as your refuge. In Psalms, David continuously calls God his stronghold, rock, refuge. I have no doubt that if things only get worse, God will be my refuge. He will cover me, and He will provide all that I need, He always has and I know He always will. God, thank you for showering me with Your peace today, for reminding me where my hope lies. Be my refuge, my strong tower, the only stronghold in my life. I look forward to being a radiator, radiating Your radiation!
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