1As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received.
There is only one person who knew the time of His death, the circumstances leading up to it and surrounding it. Instead of living His life to somehow change His future, He embraced it, He looked for it, and at times He staved off premature death in order to be at His purposed time.
He lived His life worthy of this calling. Everything about Him pointed towards this purpose.
God has been speaking to me about death. Not a physical death, but a death of my flesh. He has given me a premonition that my past must die. I have moments of feeling like a live person trapped in a casket buried 6 feet under. There is a person inside of me that is screaming to live, but it cannot break free because I have not embraced the death of the old me. I am brought to Col 3 again.
1Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 2Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.
12Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.
and Eph 4...
1As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. 2Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. 3Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. 4There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to one hope when you were called— 5one Lord, one faith, one baptism; 6one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.
Am I walking in forgiveness towards others? Am I walking in unity of the Spirit? What is the calling I have received, and how can I walk worthy of that calling?
First I must partake of the "one baptism" which is dying to my old self, and being raised in Christ as a new creation. Lord, I want to die to my flesh, to my old life. I want to be new in You. You take my life and remove the old rags and like Lazarus You remove the stone and the the wrappings that bind me. I choose life, You are the resurrection and the life, and I choose You. Lord, cause my spirit to live in the unity of Your spirit.