My Verse

Isaiah 43:1

"But now, thus says the Lord, your Creator, O Jacob, and He who formed you, O Isreal, "Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine!"

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Average

I'm 5'6, 150 lbs (on a good day, early in the morning w/ no extra weight). I wear an 8.5 - 9 size shoe, and I'm a size 10/12 in pants and M shirts. I'm average. When it comes to buying clothes and shoes, I usually find what I like in a size larger or smaller, but rarely in my size. Why? Cause every other average person has already beat me to it. I'm average.

I've always wanted to lead, felt like I could lead, but rarely had anyone follow. I figure people don't want to follow an average person. They want to follow someone who is extraordinary, salient, outstanding. I certainly don't stand out. I'm one of those people who gets lost in the crowd easily. I've been at parties only to have the host ask me the next day if I was there, they just don't remember me.

I've always been the type of person to be second. Not really first at anything. Even my sister recognized this. When my mom passed away and we were allowed to pick through her jewelry to find things we wanted to keep, she of course went first and left me with the things she found to be second rate. Of course she would do her best to assure me that she would make sure I got something of great importance. Okay.

Growing up in my old church is where I usually tried to stand out the most. But once again I was only average. Everytime I felt like I found that place where I finally fit, that place that I just knew God purposed for me, somehow someone else ended up being there. I felt like that kid in a game of musical chairs. You know, the one that always get pushed out of the chair they thought was theirs, or is just too slow to find an open chair. They're always the first one out and they never win. I'm just average.

In terms of pottery, I am the clay piece that sits on a top shelf collecting dust cause there are other identical pieces that seem to be at eye level, and everyone notices those. The ones at the top are always forgotten or seem to end up shattered on the floor.

I'm average.

4 comments:

wiffleball_legend said...

I love you. You are not average to me. You are distinctive, advanced, top-flight, and exceptional.

Crossroads said...

I have felt like this a lot in my life...I understand. But our Creator in all His wisdom chooses us "average" people to do extraordinary things. The Bible is full of "average Joes" who become spiritual giants and changed the world forever - "The first shall be last and the last shall be first." It's an exclusive club, you're a member! :)

crossroads said...

can i do this?

Melinda said...

No, I am not average. I am the chosen of God, I am the Bride of Christ, and I will live a life worthy of this calling...

Eph 4