Getting Started

It all began 3 years ago! Wow, has it really been that long? I decided I wanted to sell jewelry. I thought to myself, I'll start out making a few pieces on my own. Well, I got a few people interested, and before I knew it I was having my own jewelry parties (well I only had 3)! But, after 2 kids, things got really hectic, and I had to put that dream away. Literaly, I put it in a box and it's under my bed right now! I felt a little saddened, and every now-and-then, I would get it out and look at it, thinking about starting again, but I just didn't have it anymore.
So, my good friend Traci (see me name dropping, heehee), sent me her catalog of jewelry that she gotten into! Once again the spark was lit! So, here I am planning my first show! I'm so nervous and excited at the same time. What if noone shows up? What if everyone shows up? Do I know my stuff? Will it be a complete flop? Do I have what it takes to stick with it even things don't start out as I plan? I could go on with the list of worries!
I'm doing it though, I'm going out on that limb and if I fall, I'm gonna fall hard, but I'm never gonna know unless I do it!

lots to say

It's been awhile, again! My blogging is very off and on again. So, where do I begin? I start with recently and move on from there!

First, I"m so tired of being betrayed, stabbed in the back, and lied to! I'm a very emotional person, even though I really try to hide it. But when it comes to relationships (all kinds), I put my heart and everything into them. so when someone says the smallest thing or does the smallest thing to betray that it is like ripping my heart out. Really what I want to do is go that person and say, "How dare you!" and few other explatives; put them in their place. I've been stepped on my whole life, and I don't want to keep doing the right thing anymore. I've been doing the right thing, and all it has gotten me is more heartache.

Now that that is out of the way, I need to go fix supper my girls! Oh the wonderful life of parenthood!

Fear of Heights!

We just got back from youth camp! I had such an amazing time. Paintball-I did it, Ropes course-I did it, Extreme sports-did it! But what I'm most proud about is the ropes course. 2 years ago when we went to this camp, I only did the rockwall, and I didn't get very far, so it was no biggie. But this year I faced my fears and did something amazing. I climed a pole about as high up as a telephone pole, then crawled on my hands and knees across to another pole where I stood up and walked across a wire, to another set of poles that I crawled across. Once I was done with that I was hooked to the zip line and went soaring! I'm writing this like it was no big deal, but I was terrified the whole time. Of course, I'm going to be corny and make a connection to my relationship with God. Even though I knew I was harnessed in and that I wasn't going to fall, I just couldn't bring myself to trust that one rope or the person who was holding it. It has a lot to do with my independence I'm sure. If you want to trust someone, or make sure that you are safe you can only trust yourself. and that is true a lot of times with my relationship with God. I feel so much that I have to rely on myself to get things done. But I came to realize that in the end, it was all okay, and that I had no reason to fear anything. And God does the same for us! He has us the whole time, but we just don't trust the rope or the person holding it.

4 things you might not know about me. . .

I got this from an email from a friend. I don't really have anything interesting to say so I'll do a survey instead! If you like it, pass it on.

1. 4 jobs I have had in my life
Of course babysitting for various people
I worked at a roller skating rink for one day, and a gas station for one night
I made and sold jewelry at a jewelry store (this was by far the most fun job I ever had!)

2. 4 places I have lived
Well, I was born in Weatherford, a small part of my childhood was spent in Haskell, TX where most of my family had lived for a long time, I lived in Anson, Tx for the rest of my school years, and lived in Waxahachie where I went to college for 1 year!

3. 4 TV shows I like to watch
CSI, of course. The Office. and right now, I'm addicted to Deadliest Catch. A show about crab fishermen in Alaska that comes on the Discovery Channel. And Ghost Hunters is really awesome, but sometimes I get a little scared!

4. 4 places I've been on vacation
wow, I haven't been anywhere on vacation. My vacations have become trips with the youth group. But they have been awesome! Last year we went to Colorado, and I so want to go back!
Before I grew up, I went to New Mexico. I took a trip with my Grandma and we stopped in Louisianna for a wedding, and then in Alabama to visit my Aunt, and went swimming at the beach in Pensacola, FL. I also went on a mission trip to Mexico the summer of my 8th grade year!

5. 4 of my favorite foods
Mexican food is always a favorite (try the raynosa salad at Abuelo's)!
I love the Chicken Critter Salad at Texas Roadhouse. Yes I know, I'm eating a chicken salad at a steak restaurant
I also love the Penne Pasta at Ramano's Macaroni Grill
And last but not least, I love a good chicken salad sandwich on croissant!

6. 4 places I'd rather be right now
At the pool!
playing basketball
taking a vacation in Hawaii
In San Antonio with my friends, Amy and Sean!

7. 4 friends
I just mentioned them
Amy & Sean (they count as one because they are married, you can't have one without the other)
Of Course Stacy
My friend Traci from High School
And Becky. But not necessarily in that order!

8. Places I like to shop
I love thrift stores! If I can find something and get a good deal, it has made my day!
Furniture resale shops, I have this thing about taking an old piece of furniture and redoing it.
Godiva's chocolatier (really I only go in and look, but it is mouth watering fun!)
Walmart!

Well this is me in a nutshell!

Another summer camp

Next week we are leaving for Tyler, TX. I'm starting to get excited, not really because we are taking the youth group to camp, but I get a whole week without kids (well my kids anyways). I feel a little selfish about my reasons for going to camp this year. I just want to get away from the mundane of my life here lately and just have fun and enjoy being around young people. I want to play basketball till my arms fall off, because I usually don't get to play all I want because of my girls. I am a little stressed though. Even though I want to go and have fun, I am a leader, and therefore I have to act like one too. Which means I have to be an example for the young girls, and keep my attitude in check and make sure everyone is following the guidelines set for us. I think I'm pysching myself up for some kind of confrontation, I just don't want to deal with it. But anyways, I am praying that each person that goes receives something from God. Ah, "summer camp" highs! If only they would last.

my goal

So, in January I started focusing on loosing all the weight I had gained. As of today, I have lost 20 lbs.! Oh my gosh it has been such a long road. I can't hardly believe it! I haven't weighed this much since High School. WHOO HOO! Somebody give me a cookie!

Happy feet

So, Caeli has been watching Happy Feet like every day! It really is a cute movie. It makes me want to learn how to tap dance! But it looks really hard, and this white girl doesn't dance very well. Oh well I can always dream!