Some days, I feel like I'm the one doing all the work. Every task seems mundane and tedious, like rolling a rock up and down a hill, with no results to show for it.
Some days, like yesterday, I feel the Holy Spirit. My words are seasoned, my actions intentional, I see real evidence of fruit and seeds and growth.
I realized something yesterday. I measure myself according to those days, as if it was all by doing. I say on the good days, "I feel accomplished. Everything I wanted to happen, happened, and in the way that I wanted it to." I say on the other days, "I am a failure today, I have accomplished nothing. I have wasted time, I haven't done this or that, and nothing has turned out the way I wanted it to. This day I am a failure."
Is the Lord of the good days and the bad days?
Is He Lord of my life yesterday, but not today?
Yesterday, God was good.
Is He still good today?
When I take into account my actions and words, I see a central theme.
Is it the Lord who works, or me? It is the Lord, and His Holy Spirit is at work in me. On my good and bad days, it is the Lord always, and I want to give Him glory, regardless of how the day seems to be going. What does that look like?
When I'm yelling at my kids, is God getting glory? No, of course not. But when He convicts me, and I repent, and I confess, He is glorified. In my weakness He is made strong. He is stronger than my mistakes, and I may have failed, but He has not. He can take my failings and turn them around and use them for His glory. My works=failure, weak, missing the mark, full of sin. The Lord's work=perfect, strong, complete, bringing glory to His name. Thank You Lord for working in me!
Lord, continue Your work in me. Your word says that You are faithful to complete the good work that You have begun. Help me to remember that You are always in control, that in all things You will be glorified, that my life is not my own.