Turmoil: a state or condition of extreme confusion, agitation, or commotion. My heart is in this state right now. I have so much going on. My flesh and spirit are in constant battle, and most days it is my flesh that wins out. And God is speaking to me so many things, but I can't seem to make sense of it because of this battle. It's like three conversations at once, and I find myself just wanting to stick my fingers in my ears to have some peace.
Then there seems to be this deep desire burning in me. I can't explain it really, but at times I find myself just longing. Longing for God, longing for love, longing for something to bring me fulfillment. And I don't always seek for it in the right place.
I need to come to a place where I can find all that I need in Christ. I know that sounds like a sunday school answer, but really isn't it true? I need to know love. I want to know love. I long for love. Love in so many shapes and forms and meanings. The only place where that is found is in Christ.
I will waste my life,
I'll be tested and tried.
With no regrets inside of me,
Just to find I'm at your feet,
Let me find I'm at your feet.
I leave my father's house, and
I leave my Mother.
I leave all I have known, and
I'll have no other.
For I am in love with you, and there is no cost.
I am in love with you, and there is no loss.
I am in love with you, I want to take your name.
I am in love with you,
I want to cling to you, Jesus,
Just let me cling to you, Jesus.
I say goodbye to my father, my mother,
I turn my back on every other lover, and
I Press on, yes I press on.
I say goodbye to my father, my mother,
I turn my back on every other lover, and
I press on, yes I press on.
For I am in love with you, and there is no cost.
I am in love with you, and there is no loss.
I am in love with you, I want to take your name.
I am in love with you,
I want to cling to you,
Jesus, just let me cling to you,
Jesus, I want to cling to you...
To turn my back on all other's. To forsake all and run after my creator. God, I want to know You more, to search You out. To find my satisfaction in You. To be in You, to be found in You. In You I find perfect peace. In You I find release from this turmoil.
My Verse
Isaiah 43:1
"But now, thus says the Lord, your Creator, O Jacob, and He who formed you, O Isreal, "Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine!"
"But now, thus says the Lord, your Creator, O Jacob, and He who formed you, O Isreal, "Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine!"
4 comments:
Stacy and i were talking of that kind of love today at icecream. very nice. To love the Lord as a lover, as our bridegroom, as a brother, and as a father. To love.
I don't want to be a distraction or hinder your ability to hear the Lord. Its amazing to me how much you actually hear from the Lord but you doubt it. I love you.
Turning our backs on every other lover is so hard. We think, like Gomer, that they will give us stability.
I love this Misty Edwards CD! At first I didn't get a lot of the lyrics, but the more I listen the more I tear it apart, the more God speaks to me. I don't want to walk around with my fingers in my ears saying "ladadadadum, I don't want to hear...":)
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